If you feed me, do I not gain weight?

staying fit is hard. when you are tall and alone and have to go on dates with food, and pretty much spend a lot of time huntched over a desk with a book or laptop, or on the sofa watching syfy, weight is hard.

Eating right... it's hard. People are all "oh no it's so easy" well I have a bad relationship with food so there. And as Christopher Titus said in "Love is Evol"... no one falls in love at first sight with your personality. And since I live in a land filled with pretty skinny people (seriously, all the married girls I know are hot to trot even if their hubbys are larger. You see loads of single sad big girls like me, but no big sad guys.)

Girls are often willing to date down with looks. Guys, not so much. And a lot of those that do, are actually dating "up". Yeah. I can be shallow just like everyone.

I recently discovered a taco join.... their queso may be the best ever.... their breakfast tacos are super yummy (breakfast and tacos= yum). They are so growing on me.... and by growing I mean making my jeans tighter and my wallet lighter.

A sorry combo if ever there was.

I am sick of fad diets and weight watchers and lean cuisines and lindora and atkins and south beach and everything else I have tried, loved and then fell off of.

If anyone ever reads this and comments "well work out more" I force myself to go to the gym 4-6 times a week and run/walk/jog up an incline on the treadmill for 40 or more min. Yeah, sometimes it's just 30 if I am running late (work outs for me have to include set time to shower and not be stinky. I sweat like a dude) or sometimes I'll only do 4 days instead of 6. But I am there, always trying. So don't tell me to workout or I will cut you.

So that's my rant. It's kind of date related right? Mostly cause all the guys on the sites talk about how much they love to workout be outdoors and be healthy and date healthy skinny (but big busted) ladies.

Bah.... and now I want an apple... with peanut butter.